I'M JUST FUTILITY

You sure can laugh at me but dont feel the way i do..
Being so remorseful but having no one to apologise to..
I'm just faking elation though i'm sunk in my misery..
Still so clueless,i'v fallen in THEIR treachery..

Wasted energy, I'm the worst deadloss.
Guess I'm more of a flaw than all my flaws.
Even god is ashamed of the scum he's made.
I just long headlessly for the moment I'll fade.

Seems like I'm a little void in this universe..
The worst kind for which you find no worse..
Withered hopes of mine are often betrayed by a fresh skin.
Every day brings a new fear,breathing sure is a sin.
When i'm right,they slap me to entrench their ills.
When i'm wrong..the guilt gives this ache but never kills.
I'm sinking in tears so tough to barricade....
But why am i longing for the moment i'll fade....??


An aimless malfunction,a pitfall worth applause.
Guess I'm more of a flaw than all my flaws.
A clueless psyche with no chance to make the grade.
Just waiting for the moment i'll fade.

A blur was "me..the victim" and all that victimised me.
Why am I searchhng for myself,the person who disguised me??
Avoiding death while heading towards a diabolic fall..!!
I'm all futility..my futility nullified me.......